life and pregnancy the hard times being 17 and pregnant and what im going threw

when someone finds out from your mother that you don't even live with that your pregnant and doesn't let you tell people you self it hurts because they tell people that you wanted to tell like my little brother found out from my neighbor because of my mom i feel like i cant even trust anyone in my life except my daughter and fiance .i told my grandmother on her birthday witch was a couple days after my moms and my grandmother said she knew but never wanted to make me do a test i didn't know until 9weeks 6 days pregnant with my daughter and now to this day it is harder to be around my brother he gets mad so easy hates me i feel like i cant even live with my grandmother even tho i'm only 17 and then the doc don't want me working or exercising much i barley can walk a block with out having to worry about going into premature labor i'm 24 weeks pregnant or farther and just starting to have problems with exercising and eating . i feel like my life here at home is going down everything i do i get yelled at and then my grandma says to not let a messy house stress me out or anything but its hard when i get told i don't do anything from my brother iv been having problems since he threw a cowboy boot at my back it didn't hurt me but i got so mad that i was thinking about killing my self i don't know how much longer i could live here with out hurting my self i want the best for my daughter and me and i cant give her it or me it .i thought my brother would accept it and understand and try to make it more calm but now he calls me fat and a lot of mean things knowing how i was before i was pregnant i started starving my self and riding my bike i went from 145 to 115 and i told everyone i was eating and stuff i don't wanna go back to how i was but its hard when you have some tell you that Ur fat and mean names when ur pregnant and under wait for your height my daughter is what made me gain weight its all baby and water and everything but when i have her im gonna lose so much weight i don't have anyone to talk to no friends because almost all of then partied and i'm gonna be a mom a mom doesn't drop what shes doing with her kid and party all night im not gonna be like the girls on teen mom2 or 16 and pregnant .i know im only 17 but i have a lot i want for my daughter and she deserves im finishing my GED even with everyone against it the only people i have to tell me to keep doing it is my fiance he knows what i wanna be and do i don't want my daughter living how i did growing up with barley a mom having no dad. im not gonna be a mom that lets her daughter do what ever and when ever shes gonna know priorities and right and wrong and that school comes first before games and friends .i never had someone tell me to do school work before i went out tell me i need to get good grades have help and its made it so i couldn't finish high school by the time im 21 i still wouldnt have so i have to get my ged to help support her and teach her that it doesn't matter what problems you go threw that if you put your heart to it and finish you can do anything .