Since january i found out i had a peice of a iud left and it broke pf caused a infection witch caused pid anytime i get a yeast infection or anything or a uti it causes pid ive miscarryed 3 times this year. I went to my dads andbloved it until they would talk about how i am with my duaghter sorry i dont dk things your way i keep secrets o didnt tell people i was pregnate. I was told the day i found out i woukdnt make it to 25 weeks they dknt understand what its like being told that from a doc and being asked to have a abortion hell no its ny baby me and her are here against all the odds and if i do have another kid because of the reactions i might not say shit. Since i cane home ive only heard 1 thing from my step mom is when u guys coming back down do u know the dates. I work 40+hours a week even though i dont need to i spend tbe rest of my days and night studying and being with my amazkng beautiful daughter. If i voice my opinion i wouldn get shot down. I sat in bed there and talked on the phone tk fall asleep and i talked to the love of my life telling him about my day or texting him. I have ny own place and i dint see my family even though they watch my daughter while i work ny fiance does. Im not about telling them evrything never have or will and if u dont like me i dont care. Im me u never raised me if u did i would still be the same person probbaly would have done worse. My family tried to gey me to finish school i decied to get high and drunk i wiuld still and do gradfiti i tore familys apart i almost killed my self but no i had told my grandma ro never contach my dad and tell him he probably wouldnt have cared i found out when i got pregnant he did care when i told him about the drugs i never heard frkm him until i called him and told him at 25 weeks i was pregnant with a little girl. U know what i got was nothung never talked to the person who cared the most was my uncle who would ask how i was feeling or how she is. Thats what a daughter neexs at that time when i found iut about pid in march i told them and i got told it was frkm a std for ine ive been tested evry 3 months 2 they even said it was from a iud on the sheet that didnt get fully tooken out. If ur reading this i dont think u need to tell me how to raise my daughter. What 2 year old knows how to do push ups and crys when mommy is being dropped off at work im saving mknrh for collage. I have to pay for my own wedding and my family isnt going to help.. oh and im making a acciunt for my daughter so she can have a beautiful wedding. No one knows hoe it feels to not have a dad that sill call atlesst try and get ahold of his granddaughter and daughter to say i love u of just see how u are. Maybr thats why ny grandma didnt tell him anything. I started drinking when i was cominv back from colorado i dont remeber anything about it but ivr found emails i tried sending my dad but couldnt. Im hapoy i didnt but maybe i should have theere from when i was 12. And i just found out in june i wiuld have a 8 year old brother i know losing a kid is hard i cant tlak about what ive lost i break down looking at babies or seeing people pregnant i can put on a face like it doesnt effect me i have to for my 2 year she can tell when im hurt or upset. Shes going tk have s amazing spoiled child hood. Theres my vent. I love ny dad snd sisters but im not going tk be told and then lectured all the time. I get lectured because shes not pottu trained well here is what i think abiut it she is 2 and ahes learning in not forcing or beeting my child becsuse she hsd a accedent i bought her cloth diapers because she deserves a healthy ass there better then those throw aways that cause sores and rashes she hsd a rash i switched and its gone with in a few hours.
I quite making my duaghter processed fokd evrything is orgnic she she loves it we make french frys together she loves fruits and veggies. She has a mom and dsd that care about therw weight no more junk food unless its chips and crackers what parents at age 18 and 19 like tk eat healthh not many and know what collages they want and what they want not alot in my town yes i might. Not have my ged but atlesst i try snd im. Going to and hoing tk school kn nutrition my dreams is to be a personal trainer snd nutrition specialist if u go to school yk help people get fit why not teach them to eat right to keeo fit evrything u eat is what helpes u get fit. Ive never had a chance to do what i want but seejbg how mu 2 yesr old wants tk work out with me and my bf and she will copy she can do push ups only 2 but for a 2 year old its amazing she doesn planks with me and laughs we find it fun maybe doing a baby work out class would be fun one day for toddlers.
